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Tuesday, July 6, 2010

这年也如往年一样,能让我动心的女生也没出现.虽然女生缘还不错,人品好的女人也有,但始终我也无法真的提起兴趣.可能是我对爱情的定义有所出入吧.很多时候,我不断告诉自己:"我可没什么条件去选哦 有女生喜欢已是三生有幸了".
然而,我无论如何也不想欺骗她们和我自己...对我而言,女孩的爱情儿戏,我可玩不起,也没兴趣.

有很多事情,我不方便写在facebook中。为什么?嗯 就这样吧 facebook 很多人看着就是了。再说,我个人本身把感情与想法..."暂时"储蓄起来,以纾缓一些正面和负面的影响,这样对任何人也有好处。当然,误会和不能理解我的人也很多,甚自身边的人也会有时不小心从某方面中伤了我,我也是会觉得很难受一下字的嘛,但是无要紧的,因为我是男人啊! 怎能这样就小气嘛(笑)...哈哈...么,但也请别太过分啦...我可不想有决情的时候.

Thursday, July 1, 2010

安心

回到自己的房间...感觉很安心, 听着我不明白的歌 ; 但却能感受到 歌给我的安抚, 关怀,
疼惜 . 我没受伤也不需医疗...只是,就这样静静地听, 也是很浪漫的. 我的恨,我的怨,我的烦,我的心...全被没收了. 我不懂是否被爱的感觉是这样的吗? 我每晚都很喜欢这样子...不能永久也没关系. 至少, 让我在这段时间感受一下...我的实在感 . Thank You.

Saturday, June 12, 2010

Feel much better now



It was took me a long long time to get me back on earth where i am. Like iron-man Tony Stark :" it is good to be back!" Haha...i not sure if some of you welcome my returning but still. I am glad i am back to where i belong. Erm, what i mean my feelings and determination.

Previously i part of fall in some problems ( Well,you know those problems that teenagers normally face with ) during my first semester. These problems all happen just too suddenly, even me myself unable to get over it in a short time. I have never face this kind of situation before ; just too much personal feeling involved.

I thought i could handle these nonsense feeling as a mature man. I was think so but i fail to do so eventually. Found myself really really so weak...but i cannot tell myself the reasons. I really hate when my self turn into this feeling...and i hide in my room and cry like a kid who lost his candy. Haha i know...so embarrassing. >///< keep this as my secret...please.

Blogging is almost i use it as a only place for me to express my feeling and some of the secret. It like my secret hideout =p. i feel get better each time after i wrote it out. Guys i think you all get what i mean right? =)

Whatever, i am back on track now to fight for surviving in UTAR and stay with her and my precious friends,even we getting less to speak with each other. I remain plays my roles as me ( i found myself getting icy as well ; but no matter, i will try to fix it anyway ^^ ).

To my dear reader(if there any): Wish me become much stronger. I never mind on you hurt me with words but at least, appreciate me... Thank You.

Hahaha...so emo xD ( but i really feel much better now ^^ )

Friday, May 14, 2010

This is ME



I am back! it is really been a while since my last post during February. You may wonder why i am not active on blogging or i just simply too busy?
Well, i been almost totally lost during this long semester, things just happened like that, bad result and other feeling have driven me crazy yet i don't dare to share my feelings in here even maybe there is no reader of my blog. i am kinda person who always keep secret in my heart rather tell someone else, not even with my friends. Perhaps, you all not even sincerely interest to listen my story. Please forgive me. i need some space for my own, this is the best solution.

This long semester i have make gaps between us, make myself like really not to be needed or be notice. All i done is just buy myself some air to breath. I had getting tired to be the one i really not. These year i try to keep my self active in socialization and make many good friend as possible.In order to do so, this fact have become the power for me to intend to pursuit my bachelor of marketing with a better result. That time i was really gave myself the greatest pressure ever and with a sea of responsibility.

Since i was in secondary school, i barely found myself really not so interest to face those alphabet and numbers. However to keep myself far from those people( gangsters and those useless trashs), i forced myself. I told myself, this just a piece a cake, you can make it! come on! And thank God i only manage to pass, barely.

STPM is the one of the biggest disappointment during my school days. I started to suspect that i might really not suit to keep study as a student any more. My parents are all not high educated, so although they give their best to help me out but it was ever enough. As a eldest son in family, their really make a lot of hope on me, this i never blame them, because i and their son, and most importantly, i love them more than everything.

So, since i was young i tried to play a role model to my younger sister and brothers But it does not stay for long. For them, friendship and lover more important than family. Yeah terrible isn't it? the influence of friend and puppy love for them is almost everything. Franky i don't blame them, after all they are my sister and brother.

Once ago, my sister asked me why don't i try get a girlfriend and by that time i will have same thought as they do. Well, i was intend to, she is really a nice girl and she really give me a short but sweetest memory i never have. Most of the time i thinking of her, wonder her thought and keep her not to feel bored with me. But i realized this would not stay for long. We are still too young and she might not even notice she is not really love me after all. Therefore i choose to just be friend and even the friendship not even stay for long since that. Yeah, is my fault.

You may ask will i regret to do so? Well my answer is : i would do the same thing even there is a time machine for me. But i sure will miss that moment and the feelings. Nothing much because it is a part of my memory.

I think i am the worse guy in this world, this could be the best explanation of my current status. Not because of royalty, but for responsibility. My result in this semester really not good; but i not yet give up! For the Love.

-this is me-

Saturday, May 8, 2010

Monkey Majik - Closer To You



It’s always on a Friday night, when everybody seems to go outside.
Why am I alone tonight?
I think I’ll take my chances watching the city lights.
Somebody’s calling me, I go up to my window, rushing but no sign.
I couldn’t reply, cause I’m so shy.

But oh! I really want to go,
I really want to show myself that I can take these chances.
I just want to be the guy, who gets to be closer to you.
But oh! I’ll maybe never know, it’s not a T.V.show,
I’ll never get a happy ending.
I don’t want to say goodbye, I need to be…
Closer to you,
the way you look tonight gets me to ignite my heart for you.
It may be denial, it’s all worth the while.
And all I want to do is be closer to you.
I’m running out of time. I never take the chances that I’m dealt.
Ooh whoo ho ho’ ooh whoo oh oh!

You know I run to you,
but you don’t even welcome me in your arms.
I’m just a little bit confused.
Seems like we were having a good afternoon.
Nobody’s calling me, I go up in my bedroom. I’ll sit down and sign.
I am ready to cry, why not cry?

But oh! I really want to go,
I really want to show myself that I can take these chances.
I just want to be the guy, who gets to be closer to you.
But oh! I’ll maybe never know, it’s not a T.V.show,
I’ll never get a happy ending.
I don’t want to say goodbye, I need to be…
Closer to you,
the way you look tonight gets me to ignite my heart for you.
It may be denial, it’s all worth the while.
And all I want to do is be closer to you.
I’m running out of time. I never take the chances that I’m dealt.
Ooh whoo ho ho’ ooh whoo oh oh!


i wish i could sing for her...

Thursday, February 25, 2010

Chinese new year gathering ^^6 Atas Topaz



On 16th of February, finally all my fellow form6mer clear out their free time to join this gathering ^^ so..it should be start from 8pm( 9.15pm from rawang @@ haha), at one of the stream boat restaurant near Kepong Jusco ^^

when we all set, all of us rush in and sapu all the food we can get like yong tau fu,sotong,crab @@,noodles,eggs,vegetables,and all kind of dishes(ice-cream^^) haha.u should see mee kuan's table...i was worried if they can finish it or not(will charge rm5 per 100g if cant finish it), soon my worries all gone(they still sapu-ing XD) haha..

while my table all gentle eat la..^^ frankly i hate the BBQ sotong...very no rasa...>.
Think of it, that was my 1st time join them since 2 years ago, i really glad to see them again...and the greatest new is one of our guy name ah pek is in relationship already!!! congratulation bro~ haha ^^

In the end we 'san band' at around 12am..but i need to go back early so i no join the others 2nd round called 'go roll coconut and spin bananas' hehe...ask me if you don't know the meaning haha XD